NOT! OMG YOU’RE DISGUISTING AND PATHETIC AND HORRIBLE AND BLAH BLAH BLAH REST OF BULLY SPEECH!

I mean like… When i see pictures or writing or it or see people i love have done it… It makes me wanna cry and be sick at the same time, i reckon it’s because like i’m a very squeamish person and it’s SUCH a sensitive area, i mean, i really love it when my fiance kisses my wrists because there so senstive and vulnerable and it’s like one a those ‘trust me’ kinda things and i really enjoy that… Buh like the most important person in the world to me self harmed and i still check their arms every time i see them even though they haven’t done it in… Around about a year?? I don’t do it obviously of course just a quick glimpse if there arm is by me (They only did it on one specific arm) and i can still see scars today and i’ve never been more terrified in my life when it was going on…
Because i know it can result in death and the amount a stories i watched and read about it, just so i could be able to like get accoustomed to it and not burst into tears everytime i saw somet like it with them or when they described how they felt and stuff… I think me accepting it really helped them, buh it killed me inside it made me feel depressed and as much as i wanted to be with them when they missed me and wanted me to be around them i just… I found it so hard, 1. Because i needed some me time and 2. Because it was affecting me so badly, they’ve recovered (To a degree) now buh everytime they have a mini relapse (Not selfharming buh other stuff) it makes me even worse which is stupid buh it’s the worst thing i’ve ever gone through in my life… Just knowing there was nothing i could physically do to stop them, the fact they tried to make jokes about it whenever i got upset because i didn’t want to lose them…

I’m just sick of people ‘gloryfying’ it… Like posting loads of pictures about it and banging on about it… True self-harmers don’t tell people they do it… Because their ashamed of the fact they’ve resulted to that or because their scared of what people will think… You wouldn’t believe the lies i heard about it till that person finally broke down to me about it… So please just STOP posting pictures about it or reblogging it because to ME it just looks like someone whos attention seeking… Yes sometimes it is people trying to raise awareness because they’ve been through it or their trying to help other people through it, buh, it’s fucking private! So back off spamming my dashboard with pictures of it because it’s reminding me of the worst time of my life (And i’ve had to go to police and pervs before…) and its upsetting me and hurting me and making me feel unwell (Because of my nausa)

If you are a self-harmer then yes please speak out to someone and reach out because there ARE people listening who want to help you!! Buh don’t do it because something didn’t go your way at school/college/university that day or you broke up/had a fight with you partner… Because thats attention seeking, proper self harming is resorted to when a REAL problem hits or if someone is suffereing from several different things all at once like PTSD or SAD and Depression or from being Bi-Polar, you know, REAL medical mental conditions…

Once you start to get the tremors of any of these mental conditions (Or more) then contact someone immediately! Don’t pissarse around blogging pictures or gloryfying it, because you sir, who does it for attention, are pathetic human beings that need medical attention for sooooooo much more…

Sorry if i’ve offended anyone buh i’ve spent the last day JUST seeing that… And don’t give me the whole ‘if you dont like it unfollow them’ because you DONT know who will post that stuff ANYONE could/might and you could have been following them for ages…

It just breaks my heart… And i’m sick of it… So please… Just help those that need help and don’t be a person that thinks self-harming gives great attention… Thank you… <3 XxX